I don't have much to offer you, but wanted to let you know I am sorry you are still hurting. The longer we struggle/stand the lbs seems to raise the bar on what is required to R again. The more we go through the more we decide that that is not acceptable. We deserve more. You know that.

I have not yet experienced separation (in house or otherwise) but I imagine that when/if that happens, I will mourn briefly and then expand fully towards a life without W. Again this is just how I think I would react, but who knows really.

I am curious to understand why you don't seem to be fully able to move on yet you say you don't think you want to reconcile. This is for me to understand and not a reflection on you.


R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together