[BrightFuture]

Hi Sotto! Thanks for taking time to read my update and post your view! I really appreciate it. And this exactly what I was looking for. I think you are spot on about the gifts. I’m going to take your advice and casually thank BIL for the gift. I’m going to probe him though, if this is really from him, as I really don’t remember what he said when he was handing it to me. To your point, BIL didn’t say anything directly, that’s for sure. My sister’s “speculation” is that the lipstick case was from H and BIL was just a messenger, and making sure that H had some kind of “presence” at my B-day party.

Sotto, I completely agree with you, that if H would want to come back into my life, he would have to come with more than just a gift. I think that he might be testing the waters to see if I would be open to anything at all. But… if he would want to truly reconnect, he would have come out and talk to me. This would be a mature way to handle things.

Bottom line is that I’m intending to continue with my life as I have been. I just need to keep the romantic side of me in check, LOL. I might miss some “hints” and “signs” from H… But… hints and signs are no longer enough for me. I need something more substantial. If he can deliver… Great! I will take a look… If not… I will keep moving on.

Tomorrow I have our neighbor at the vacation home coming over to pick up my old car to deliver it to my mutual friends in Mexico (she is supposed to pick up my H from the airport tomorrow and I’m sure he will do the driving.) She was supposed to pick up the car tonight, but her flight got delayed, so she is coming tomorrow. I’m so sentimental about giving away my old car…. I’m just so weird this way… I had this car for 15 years and it “saw” the history… I have lots of memories in regards to this car… I’m selling it to my mutual friends for 1 ½ or 2 time less than I could have sold it to a private party.

In any case, I think this car is sort of a symbol… I NEED to let go of the past… I need to embrace the new beginnings!