Painter, you're doing great. There is no way you're back to the beginning. You're just having a flashback to what those days felt like. You've come so far since the bad old days, and you are a different person now - stronger, more independent, and more resilient. Tomorrow is a new day. Make it a better one by focusing on the present.

(((Painter)))

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16