But it's what we all are here for these days. Easpcially me, it not like I can save my m. The ow has her hooks deep and xh2 thinks she's a prize and she thinks he is.
It's is what it is and they aren't learning anything from what happened we are gaining insight and strength along with our healing. It's a time thing.
Yes. You are right. I am feeling much better. Had some very positive interactions with him. Easy to do when I believe he is the one who lost the prize. And today I am feeling that way. I am happy. And that is something he really doesn't know how to be because for him everything is conditional. I think that might be a big thing that he really hates about me--I always know how to be happy even when I am sad, struggling, heartbroken. I went through a dark phase last year--the first time in my life that I couldn't figure out how to snap myself out of what I was feeling. But that is over and in the past. I learned from it. I am more understanding of people who can't snap themselves out of it now because I finally experienced that sort of psychological breakdown. Thank goodness it was only fleeting for me. I feel for the people who live that way always. I never understood it before. And the perspective here certainly helped me separate what was in my hands and what was out of my hands. I still get a little shell shocked thinking back. But I am in such a better place now I want to see my old coworkers (the good ones not the ones that were out to get me) to show them I am good again. Who I was last year isn't me. I am a changed person but not in a broken way, in a way that I am even more true to who I am then ever. My realization that people can be awful did not make me bitter and untrusting--it just made me learn to trust myself more than others, and to trust God when I am not sure if I can trust myself. I learned that I can love without giving my power away.
I am better. He didn't throw me away, he planted me. I never could have blossemed in that old life, and now i feel like I stand a chance.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
