Well hello wave of pain. Mind movies have started back up and it keeps taking my breath away. Why couldn't I have a truly remorseful spouse from the get-go? Why do I have to do this dance while he treats me like garbage? Will he ever come out of this fog? Or is it just his new baseline, this selfish, entitled jack@ss? Better yet, why couldn't I have married a man who actually believed in fidelity? He sure did talk a lot about it and now he is wallowing in his self pity and justifications. I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up until this was all over. This pain is just horrendous.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3
