Have i been making mistakes too long part 8

[tkdmme]

Hello all,

Its been awhile since my last post. I have been off work and have been spending a lot of time with the kids.

I am still on track but I did kind of fall of the wagon this past Friday. I played golf with some friends from work and drank some beers. Nothing crazy happened but I did break my abstinence.

Also, STBX's sister was in town last week and I ran into her while picking up the kids. we had a conversation that was an eye opener to say the least. STBX and her sister have always been extremely close but she says that STBX has shut down on her as well. her sister told me that she will not speak to her about the break up at all. She says that she sees the positive changes I have been making. She told me that I wasn't the cause of the break up and that the STBX is going through something that no one can put their finger on. Apparently STBX's family is still trying to talk to her about reconciling but they are getting nowhere.

I know that this is none of my concern and that should keep on the path im on. However, the conversation brought back my perceived need to get my W back. I want so badly for my family to be back together. I just don't understand her complete disregard for the advise of her family and others. I am a great person and a great father. I made some mistakes throughout my M but im not perfect. I know that I am well on my way to becoming the man she wants and deserves.

She was such a beautiful person before this. she was outgoing and confident. She was very present with the kids and family. Now she is just a shell. She looks bad and has lost more weight. I think its some sort of menopause of depression but I don't know how to talk to her about. I just feel if she would go to a doctor, maybe she would start to feel better. I love a care for her so much and want her to be happy but there is nothing I can do. I feel so helpless.