Thank you Sotto. I always appreciate you stopping by and sharing your thoughts.
I've been thinking about the mind reading comment you made since you posted.
It's always been a habit of mine, since I was a child. I had to learn to do it in order to survive, and I got very, very good at it.
I got so good at it, that I could slip into someone else's shoes without even realising it, and would end up with no shoes of my own (so to speak), or shoes that didn't even hold together so I couldn't get anywhere myself.
Throw in some pretty highly attuned empathy on top of that as well (I'm one of those people that can walk into a room of strangers and just *feel* what they're all about and where they're all at).
Over the past 8 or so years, I've been trying to work out my own feelings over certain things, situations and people and make my own narrative for my own life. I've been trying to redress the balance a bit if you like.
I strafed with some major life events and unusual situations. It's definitely not been easy. It's been very, very hard at times.
The risk (and sometimes the price one pays) is angering other people with your own version, or alienating them. I've angered a few and alienated some too.
How far do you go with your own version of things? How far do you let it take you? I've believed so strongly in my own version over certain things that the police have been involved two times, and there's been a court case over one of the issues...I've believed that strongly over these two things. Actually, it was more like something inside me, pushing me. I tried as much as I could to resist, because the whole thing scared me to death and the whole thing was unbelievably stressful, but I couldn't. I couldn't because of the values that I have.
Anyway, I'm digressing.
I've discovered over the past few months that there are also other ways of living once you have your own version of things, events and people, and that is by simply living. Living your life without any outward display, or grand and dramatic gestures.
I think this is what I'm learning.
Thank you for helping me to understand all of that.
