well nothing really new to post. It seems like she is warming up and then, BAM she cools right off. I have not really brought up any R talks but she did yesterday. I asked her what kind of person when caught having an affair continues another inappropriate relationship while we are dealing with the other. I answered myself to her saying not the girl I married.
I still have hope, is it really weakness? Is this M destined for D? It is such a hard decision to make for me. I am trying to get a good 1000 foot view of things before I make it. I continue to work on myself, backsliding a bit. I got drunk 2 nights in a row at a work conference and blabbed my problems more than I should have. I sounded like a little weak boy, a victim. I hate feeling this way and today I am just down. I miss my best friend, yes she shat on me, I am disconnected more now than ever but I vacillate back and forth. I have an appointment with a L this Wednesday. It will make my situation feel more real. I hope all had a good Monday.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder
