Just got off the phone with my DB coach. He also agrees that I sort of blew it when I threatened WH and his AP, this was the reaction he expected. He also gave pointers when telling my WH boundaries as I am trying to "cage" my WH as opposed to having real boundaries. He gave concrete advice on how to phrase my boundaries talk. He also encouraged me to get out of the house this week and take care of me. I told him I had already made that plan.

My heart is pounding and my stomach is swirling. I vacillate between feeling anguish, rage, hope and anxiety. These feelings change literally by the minute. I keep reminding myself that I need to separate the emotion from the behavior. I've already thrown up my breakfast and am about to attempt to drink a protein shake.


M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3