Just a Vanilla Change 30

[Vanilla]

Thank you Jim and Ju

Sometimes the feelings just take over. I let them and observe when I can.

My guilt

- not spotting this nature in WH
- introducing this man to my family and friends
- having few boundaries
- being slow to bounce back
- screaming banshee reaction
- the on going depression and complex PTSD
- my dire fins putting my business at risk
- lack of general motivation
- still having about 20 lbs of excess weight
- the fact that extreme self care has lapsed

Will that do? Ju

Big mess of guilt to wallow in.

I think most of it is just being unwell at present.

V