That's just the thing, Job. I DID reach out to them. I made a major effort to call and text more, go to their kids sporting events (usually H arranged that) and keep up socially, went to every event I was invited to, and even tried to invite them to mine. I was pleasant and they seemed fine that I was there. But on their end? Crickets.
The almost end of it was when my entire social group spent New Years Eve at OUR vacation home...and I wasn't invited. I didn't think I was invited...that wasn't the problem. It was that everyone chose to have it there and all WENT. I swallowed that and got mostly over it, continued to reach out. But then I threw myself a b-day party (daughter took it over)...first ever since I was married. NOT ONE showed up. That was the end. But I am still very hurt about it.
I am an introvert. I have had to really push to form a support group...and have gotten some very cool people in my life because of it. I practice being thankful for the great people I've met on this crazy journey everyday. They have been so amazing and do the most caring things. It inspires me to reach out more to others...I'm learning how true friends act toward each other. But my anger at wasting up to almost 20 years on these other people is not waning. Its growing. And its an emotion I don't like and I worry that it will just spread as a cancer.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
