I know that I've made plenty of mistakes along the way, but I truly have given it my best shot.
It only ends when you want it to end. As many told me through the recent days, the D is just a legal paper that dissolves a marriage in it's current state. Sometimes people don't work things out before the D is finalized, but that doesn't mean it's over for good. Death is the only thing that can keep two people from reconciliation of a relationship, and in my recent sitch, I just view my W's physical shell as the corpse of the W she used to be to me anyways. So who knows why I'd want to re-marry a corpse, but self-reflection, growth, and decisions based on what's best for me is the only thing I'm going on from here on out. You know what you need to do. Hang in there.