Thank you - mindful meditation has already been a part of my life for the past 5 years. I've read a number of books by Jon Cabat Zinn, and do about 20 minutes mindful meditation a day, maybe I should do more. I also downloaded the Ted Talks app and will start checking out the ones you suggested.
Going go to work out now, then head off to a 12 step meeting. About the 'I'm sober now' I wrote - it's been 35 days for me, which is not a lot in the big scheme of things. Cold turkey has never been much of a problem as I've gone years without it in the past, then started again for some reason this January - because I thought I was in a 'much better place and could handle it in moderation' - this is the main cause of my current marital problems. It blew apart my wife's trust in me and caused her great distress - despite the fact that the amount I do is very minimal, it is a progressive disease - and it caused me to lie and become irritable and secretive. I'm never doing it again, whatever happens. I hate it so much.
Have a good day everyone, you're in my thoughts.
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16
