Detachment, anxiety and the end of limbo

[Phoebe]

It was definitely an amusing experience, Painter. Way out of my comfort zone, but that was OK. Not sure I'd like to repeat it anytime soon, but it was worth dong once.

Vanilla, thank you for the support. You are totally right - I can't unknown what I have learned, and the blinders are off now.

Tomorrow I think that I am going to try to stay home and get some work done on the farm. For starters, I need to expand the brooder box for my chicks. I bought new boxes today at UHaul, so tomorrow it will be a bit of an arts and crafts project (tape and cardboard) to double their current square footage. My little birdies are getting big. Well, the first batch is pretty huge, and the one week olds are tiny in comparison to them, yet much bigger than a week ago. I let them commingle yesterday, and they all seem to be getting on just fine. Chickens grow so quickly that they don't seem real sometimes.

Then I am going to get my brush hog back together, now that I have the new parts, and after that I think that it is high time that I rebuilt the mower deck on my riding mower. I bought the rebuild kit about 10 days ago, right before all he11 broke loose here (when I realized H filed for a D and the process servers were looking for me). They still haven't served me yet. So very strange.

At some point I either need to buy a new engine for my push mower (remember the day that I played Phoebe, The Destructor, and broke everything - snapped the pins on my brush hog burned up the push mower engine, deconstructed the mower deck), or I have to buy a whole new mower. My inclination is always to fix, so I need to get the part number for the engine at some point and get that project underway.

So, I plan on being a (farm) homebody tomorrow. I was out most of today, even though I didn't do any social activities. I spent the morning with my parents, went out, got boxes, got a late lunch, and then took myself to a movie - Zootopia (very cute, by the way, and totally LBS safe).

Monday is soon enough to get back into the social thing again.

My goal for the night is to be in bed by 11 pm, so I have one hour. If I can't sleep much past dawn, then I am just going to have to get to bed earlier, socializing be damned.

I am running a huge sleep deficit, so I am going to take benedryl tonight, even though I have been able to get to sleep on my own for the last 4-5 days, and call it good enough. I have always functioned best on 8 hours of sleep per night, so I surely need more than the 4-5 hours I've been able to get lately. This evening after the movie I yawned the whole drive home, which doesn't seem terribly safe.

Good night to all my fellow BDers. May you have a restful evening.