Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 2

[PsySara]

Thank you all for your support.

I have already been running a script in my head of what I will say. I will make it clear that he is allowed to stay in my place as a courtesy. This is a courtesy that can be revoked the very second he becomes verbally abusive, shows hostility or disrespect. He can either go stay at a hotel or go back to his work state, I don't really care.

I will not lose my temper as he expects this and honestly, I feel it puts me in a position of weakness. I will be cool, dignified and graceful. He will NOT get under my skin, he messed up, not me. I will not take one ounce of responsibility for his resuming the affair. I have been working hard to fix me and making me a better mom and person. He has settled for sex with some ditch tramp. Yay him! Hope she was worth the utter loss of any dignity and self esteem he may have had.

I am still having moments of crushing grief and blinding rage but I am making myself stand still and control myself. I am not some impulsive immature person who will throw everything away for a moment of pleasure.