What Should I be doing (5)

[Coconut]

There is a BBQ competition downtown today, I'll be leaving in a couple of hours and spending the better part of the day there, then going out tonight to play pool with a bunch of friends.. I've decided that for me and my M to really flourish I need to emotionally detach from my W, and work on GAL, like really getting my own life.. So even though she is not doing anything tonight, I made my own plans instead of trying to plan something with her. Things are going ok with us, but I really want to become the me that will make her go crazy because she wants me so bad, and so confident and happy with myself, that if that was to ever change, it wouldn't affect my own happiness.

We ended up having a short R talk yesterday, came down to her saying that my constant analyzing and questioning of everything is really wearing her down. She doesn't understand how one minute we can be snuggling in bed and chatting, and then 10 minutes later I'm upset and asking R questions. She is right in that regard, so I'm gonna take Wonkas advice, go to the H Depot and get me some STFU tape (heavy duty).

I really just wanna detach from her, I'm not saying not spend time with her, just be ok not spending time with her and be ok with her doing her own thing. Today I'm gonna try and hit the reset button, go back to a begineers mindset and focus on me. She's not going anywhere, and as long as I can take care of my business I will be able to flourish.