Still here and need support

[poschan]

many threats thrown at me today. I just wrote out a page of them. made a few mistakes today getting caught in her traps. on the phone with WAW today i stated how important family was to me and she scoffed and made a disparaging remark about my immediate family. i got defensive and attempted to convince before giving up. mistake noted, move on. i realize now with the aforementioned page that it's time for me to get moving to protect myself. i also made the mistake of telling her I loved her on the phone and she said "i had a funny way of showing it". wow. 2x4. another eyeopener. my friend had previously mentioned the term "soul sucker" and now i think i know what he meant