I have dropped quite a bit of the rope. The x occupies very little of my time, unlike in the beginning when I would think of him even when I was busy with work.
I have spent a lot of my life with him and there are inevitably at least a few triggers in a day. I am proud to say that I just feel a pang of wistfulness and what-could-have-beens and then let the memories go.
This is the place that I write down my observations and ruminations and then file them away.
Yes, the support from here is lovely! It really takes someone who have been through what we've been through to show empathy.
I have been doing fun things with kid. So much so that the flat is starting to look unkempt because I am just so tired at the end of the day.
In fact, we just went to a tree-top obstacle course today. I am so proud of kid and myself for making it through the course despite our fear of heights.
The new flat and the remodelling works are keeping me really busy.
Lol about the 'hot' comment. I don't feel so hot nowadays although one of the contractors did try to hit on me. But I thought he was flirting to get my business.
Everytime I read your posts, I just think what an incredible mom! It's so hard seeing your child not having the father figure you would wish for them to have. But she is 100x blessed having you for a mom.
I love the way you worded, filing away your ruminations...I love posting for this reason as well.
Son and I love to dance to Bruno Mars songs too (dragon retiring)
