I was mad before, but I'm doing better. I think once everything is in ink (as vanilla puts it), I will be fine. I realize it's normal for us to get angry but not reacting on that anger is crucial. it was also something pretty petty I was annoyed with. It's not gonna make or break me so it's healthier for me to just not look back.
It's unhealthy for me to hold on to something like that so thanks for letting me vent. I will be securing best possible terms, but am very lucky that I am not dependent on him or I woukd have been in great difficulty. I am lucky I have a great family. But I don't really want to live with them!
The greatest thing I did was continue to work part time when my son was an infant. It gave me sanity and kept me up to date on my skill set.
Without even looking I have 3 job offers to supplement my part time income. One of which would possibly entail entering into a partnership (in a niche I have decent experience in). I am really proud of that but not sure if sons schedule would allow for me to do that. I have to really think about this. The best thing for me is to be structured and busy.
So I do have decent control, I just forget that I do and go on a venting spree. Sometimes I get stuck on principles and unfairness. The world is unfair though and I don't really have it that bad. I have to remind myself that. Especially when I read some of the other situations here.
