Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 2

[PsySara]

It was stupid of me to threaten exposure, it was exactly that action last time that resulted in him becoming completely cruel to me.It was a moment of weakness and I was hurting sooo bad, he had just told me he loved her and missed her. I wanted him to feel something like the panic/pain/chaos I was experiencing. I actually apologized shortly after but now he's latched onto that and says it's the reason he hates me.

I kind of up and down from minute to minute now. I can't maintain NC because he's coming on Monday for his off week and will be taking care of the kids. (nanny has that week off or she'll quit) I am floundering. I've already scheduled a DBing coaching session before he arrives on Monday. I need direction and I need it now.