Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 2

[PsySara]

JksD,
H stated the OW "broke up" with him in April and Ow confirmed yesterday on the phone. She seemed shocked that I was calling because "I haven't even talked to him in a long time." I guess 6 weeks is a long time to a 21 year old. H is not remorseful at all. Last night he spewed really hateful stuff at me because I threatened to expose OW again to her parents. He said that I did that purposely to hurt him and that it was equal to the pain he caused me by cheating and lying again.

Their original affair was in Oct last year and they both broke NC a few times since then. H promised in March to do whatever it took to be able to be near the kids which meant fixing our marriage. Not even a week later he had sex with Ow apparently. So yes, this is a very big deal to me. He refuses to agree to NC again saying he may decide to ask her to reconsider him again in the future.

He told me I was inadequate to make him happy. He said he cared for me but did not love me, that he loves OW and misses her terribly. He was so angry, even cursed at me and yelled. All because I "betrayed" him by screaming at hims and threatening exposure again.

I did not sleep at all last night. I ate breakfast this morning and threw it back up. Hands are shaking and I am struggling very hard at work to stay focused and engaged with my patients. The pain...my God the pain...it's horrendous.