Apathy is the thing I'm scared of the most and if I'm true to myself it's the most realistic answer. We did fall into a routine and things may have got a bit boring, if you gave me a planner I probably could have written down everything we would have done in a week to the exact time we would do it.
The thing that I'm finding hardest to swallow is her lack of fight for our M, I know in my heart that we can get through this and if she let's me in she will see it but I can't get past the wall she's built.
