Thanks V and Bttrfly, I do feel much better now. I had a funky few days after going to the marital home - wasn't sleeping well, sore back, emotional. But now I feel back to my usual Bonnie self, which is good.
Been busy at work and managed to get to Salsa and yoga this week. Having lunch with a friend tomorrow/bookstore and also out with a friend Saturday evening. Things are moving along with the house and it may be the tenant leaves earlier in which case I could be in before August.
As for XH, well I just feel so done with him at the moment. Maybe it's just some anger coming out, but I feel so meh about him. I've read a lot about MLC and have felt some compassion. But TBH, once the D finalised it really seemed to change things for me. I can't imagine wanting to get back together now. I just feel a million miles away from that and feel there is virtually nothing to build on now. I keep coming back to this - if we had 3 kids together and were M for 20 years. But in our case that wasn't the case and I do feel I can move on in peace. Yes, there is always more I could do, but I feel happy not to do it and look forward to a new life alone - and maybe with someone else in time.
Still in regular contact with nice guy at work. So, he lost a pile of weight through his D and since I've known him has been wearing clothes a little too large. Recently, he's invested in some new work gear - that fits! The ladies have commented how great he looks...he still seems as though he may potentially interested and I guess time will tell. I'm not in a big rush to get into another R just now. There's much to enjoy about being single...
Well, that's it from me and thanks to you all for looking in on me on a bit of a meh weekend xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
