That's why I am taking a break, because I don't think I can connect and disengage again with the same heartbreak at this point in time. I think I will feel differently soon enough, but my heart is still healing. There has been another part of me which I discussed with BFF and IC. I seriously thought that this time, I would not be able to get over exNG unless I found someone else that made me forget about him. No one thought it was crazy, and they thought it was kind of true. however, for the first time, I think I could get over him without having someone who made me forget about him. So I am going to just wait until my heart and mind isn't so darned scared of breaking a deep connection again. I think your time will come for that too.
On a good note. Ex kindly helped me fix my grill. I couldn't get off the regulator hose and he brought over his tools and did it for me. He's been kind lately. I've just enjoyed it. Once in a blue moon a bit of human peeks out and I just appreciate it.
