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I know the feeling about the daggers coming at you and trying to remain in a good place.
My IC indicated that a lot of my anxiety in the early days was due to absorbing so many daggers and firing myself not to react.
So fast forward to shortly after she moves out. I am being screamed at by her at the school she works at when I pick up d5. I was rattled by the outburst.
Then she does it again a few days later, only this time it sounds like a broken record to me. Then the next day on the phone, the same broken record. I start to smile and told her good night, she can talk to me when she wants to be civil.
It clicked in my head. She was not a rational person. And now that I could see this clear as day, nothing she says or does shakes me. In fact I chuckle at most of it now.
Even better, I think she realized that it no longer phased me, and she has basically gone into hiding and refuses to communicate with me in any form.

My point to the ramble is try and look at the absurdity of her daggers and spew and take it like you would from a stranger. I tend to chuckle at irrational folks, because its silly to me.

Hang in there, do your best to deflect the daggers with kindness and focus on your d. That is really the only way.
You got this my friend.