JB! I am so glad to have caught your post- you're back! I've missed you so! Actually, it looks like a lot of people have.
I can't imagine your presence ever hurting people, even if you are "reported to be cold and aloof" to those who you aren't clicking with. Cerebral? Introverted? I get that...I'm right there with you. H at one point called me "condescending". I then went on a bender of depression thinking of how many people might think that of me. At this point, I just try to be the best me I can be. It sounds like you are doing that,too. Learning to accept yourself and love yourself.
We lucky people that have gotten to meet you here get to see your beautiful, loving, intelligent, passionate self as you write, question, advise, and philosophize. You are an amazing woman, JB. I'm glad you are starting to be happy.
Lovely Cil,
I haven't been far away, I read you threads always. You are in great hands in MLC, they are amazing there and I see you offering so much of yourself to others here and your wisdom is so spot on and given with such grace and kindness.
I'm becoming more and more comfortable with my introverted ways and finding myself more and attracted to introverts in my friendships. For a long time I surrounded myself with extroverts in the hope that my awkward ways would go unnoticed. I'm finding that while I used to me painfully shy, and I can be social and engaging without having to be the life of the party. Too many big personalities always shut me down, but I no longer take that to mean that I don't fit in. Learning to trust people more due to my time here on the board has created shift I never knew was possible.
You know I think you're amazing, if and when I am back in the US, maybe November time 2016, maybe there is a chance of catching up. If you think that is something you might like find Zelda New, look for the Hobbit, on the one and only social media phenomenon we have call come to love to hate. She knows how to find me.