Detachment, anxiety and the end of limbo

[Phoebe]

Hi betterm. Thanks for catching up with me and for the support. I really appreciate it. I'm sorry that you are here, too. This isn't something I would ever wish on anyone.

The meditations you asked about are actually a running joke combination of two meditations. One is a chocolate meditation (it's probably somewhere earlier on my thread where SH explained it, or it's online - I can't remember where I rad the actual process after SH suggested it - could be on his thread, too) - it involves eating chocolate, so you know it's worth a try, and if the meditation doesn't suit you, just eat more chocolate!

The other you need to search for on YouTube - look up "F*ck That: an Honest Meditation" by a guy named Jason Headley. It's purely for fun, but It's made me laugh when few things could, so go find it. Heads up that it is definitely full of language that kids shouldn't hear!

I've been delving into legal stuff today, and it isn't a whole lot of fun. Mostly just gathering documents that I will need for the process. Still wish it would all just go away. I have no stomach for conflict.

I also got my ice skates adjusted, should be either having tea or going for a walk pretty soon, depending on the weather, and then I'm off to my bird group meeting. I also take dot me new L friend for a bit today, so beyond paperwork, I'm working on myself, too.

As a complete aside, I had a dream about an old lover (from over 25 years ago!) yesterday, instead of H, for once, so maybe that's a bit of progress? Dreams of H make me feel so lonely when I awaken. It was nice to have a pleasant dream about someone else for once.