What Should I be doing (5)

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Wow. I'd love to be there. Not saying it's not awkward, and that you have to ease into it, but it kind of cements things as far as getting back together goes.

I keep having these stupid visions. My son is downstairs playing the iPad, while I'm upstairs looking for his food or toys or teddy bear. Suddenly the dog goes nuts and I hear S say "Hi Mommy." I go down, see her with a handful of clothes and ask "I didn't know you were coming?" She puts the clothes on the couch, gives me a hug, a kiss and says "I love you, I'm home. I want to be a family." It's a stupid pipedream and counterproductive I know. It turns on the waterworks sometimes. But it still flashes in my head from time to time.

You're almost there Coconut, you've just got to keep fighting through things. You can do it. Try to take things slowly, and enjoy every moment together.