You are right! I have been battling with this issue for quite some time now.
At times I feel like BnB - it is such a great, wonderful connection and it is one of the few times H has been truthful about his feelings about us. Good or bad feelings - but it's been one of the few times I've gotten him to open up about his true feelings.
When we ML - there are times where I am at peace and hopeful & full of strength. But then there are times when I question if I am actually letting him miss anything about me.
What a tangled web we weave?
I've decided to back off! Little by little of course. If I do it cold-turkey he'll know I am not being sincere or I am upset about something. Gotta try something different and monitor the results.
For the first time in a long time, yesterday night H called and I didn't answer my home phone or cell phone. When H called this morning to speak to D3 - first thing he said was "I called last night"..and I simply replied "I went to the movies and by the time I got back it was too late to call you back"...I know he wasn't too thrilled about that.
Anyway, didn't mean to "hijack" this thread.
Just my thoughts on this on going million dollar question.
