Still here and need support

[poschan]

Thank you all for providing caring feedback. d7 was with WAW last night and will be tonight. I was ok last night tried to keep busy as much as possible to wear myself out. I don't know for sure yet but I tend to agree that it is harder on the younger child. I've already seen the devastation to d7 and her immense hurt and sorrow. It tears at my heart and builds anger towards WAW. I realize that d7 will probably change as well and not be able to keep being a kid like she was before WAW walked away. I guess what I mean is that I wanted to protect her from these types of world changers while she is in the tender years but WAW decided that kids are resilient and she'll be fine...
WAW father left her when she was young and was raised by a stepdad who is a good guy but probably let her get away with a lot (as well as her mom). Seems the cycle is repeating for WAW, intentionally or unintentionally.
Thank you again everyone for chiming in, it really does help in this terrible situation. the similarities to other sitches is truly saddening but helps to realize I am not alone and neither are any of you.