Phoebe... I'm catching up on your story, as I'm trying to involve and learn more about other people on this site as well. I feel for you and your pain, I'm truly sorry for what you are going through.
I know what its like to "break down" here and there, as I tend to keep a very, very busy schedule. However, once in a while, i could be home cooking, walking the dogs, or something kind of menial, and all the sudden it hits me... I'm alone, my WW is doing who knows what, surely something fun (but probably not), and I break down and cry. This happens a lot when I'm doing my journaling and/or homework too. It's just part of the process I guess. We need to grieve, we need to feel what's happening to us, and we need to take that and turn it into something positive.
Hang in there, Phoebe. I'll be thinking of you.
--- ps, what's this chocolate f-this meditation thing? I meditate twice daily at minimum (morning/night) for 15 minutes a piece.. working my way up to 20. I'm very interested in this "F-this chocolate meditation" haha.
