Yes, it sucks, but I am enjoying it and plus, he is cheating OW as well, which is good. So what do I care? ML is the only connection that I have with my H. I dunno whether he believes it will last or not, but I've consistently horny for the past four months and he is seeing that I am turning into a porn star , only thing is he said he loves OW so much and cant hurt her feelings or whatever.

No formula, I was originally HD. After birth of two girls; taking contraceptive for four solid years, neglected my diet (I have no weight issue) and underlying issues with H which he couldnt understand (I wasnt stisfied with him not paying attention to our financials, the way he handled the kids, him not spending QT with me, which made we withdrew even further), he ejaculated too quick even before I can enjoy it, too short of a foreplay and I was in pain when ML, thats how I became LD.

I wish I found Michelle's book earlier and start doing something about it, but I didnt. We were busy blaming each other.

Having analysed my previous self, I didnt like myself either so I started changing, maybe not so much of H, but for myself. Like I said, I've stopped my contraceptive entirely, taking proper diet and try to reconnect myself in a womanly manner.

My H noticed my changes, he said he never thought that I could do the sexy things that I am doing wiht him now, he commented about my sexiness and how he will be bothered if I were to ML with any other men (I think this is why he is not D me yet).


Sometimes the very thing you're looking for is the one thing you can't see..