Just to update, I never did give the W a firm time as to meet up and talk. I did run into her this weekend a S baseball games and we did chat but everytime I sensed she was steering the conversation to a deeper place I quickly navigated away from it.
We kept it light but she said a few things that led me to believe she is definitely rethinking this whole thing. "you're like a whole new you" "I wish I could have seen this change sooner we wouldn't be going through all of this now" little comments like that. I just smiled and said things like it was long overdue but wouldn't get baited into anything further.
I'm not sure why I won't commit to sit down and hash this all out. Maybe I'm still hurt over the divorce filings happening so quickly or how suddenly she just left either way I'm not even sure I'm ready to even try this again if that is what she's hoping for. Still too much I need to work on for myself let alone us. My fear though is if I don't take the chance now what if it never comes again.
Still I continue just to live for me and my S and any of the step if they reach out to me. Life is too short to be unhappy, I want to take advantage of this time I have now.
