thanks for pointing that out again. I did take a stand, an I did really do it in a nice way actually. gave him time to think, gave a very reasonable need and instead he chose to look elsewhere in the time I gave him to think. I have to remember I was feeling just unworthy when my needs were going unmet.
Otherwise, I am a bit of a doormat, just like you, haha!
I got angry last night that I was so freakin nice and reminscant when we had our phone convo. I told him he had hurt me, called out on his lies, told him I was angry...... but I still let myself hear his "words" and melted a little by engaging in talking about the good stuff.
I had the urge to text him to tell him he was douchebag for lying, for being such a taker and not giving, for not wishing me a happy birthday, for not even letting me know if his D got the card and gift and if it made her feel a little better.
Then I remembered the promise I made to myself to leave it alone after that last phone call. I just don't want him thinking I'm pining over him. I know I am a part of his everyday thoughts and convos still and it pisses me off.
But I am following through on my promises with myself.
