Toast - burnt or just right

[rich4j]

thx JK- I marvel how you are keeping it together with a pack of 5!!! You da man and hope your next few weeks smooth out with the move.

I struggle with 1!

When i get down like this I usually need to schedule time with our therapist. She helps me walk through the feelings and puts things into perspective for me. Hits me every few weeks...I hope it stops but I guess its healthier to get this stuff out than boil and stew over it.

I have read some of the stories here over the last few months of the WAW finally waking up. I know it has been said that the divorce is just a piece of paper and that is how I am going to have to treat it. For some crazy reason I keep thinking by STBX will have an awakening. I can't go into all the details but she has struggled with some health issues over the past 2 years that have put her into a different state and also a work venture that has her on cloud 9 for the last 6 months. But those things are starting to crumble a bit and I see her getting angrier at me for this divorce which is her doing.

Hope is not a strategy I always say and I need to refocus back on the prize which is my daughter and getting myself mentally healthy again. I am in a high stress job environment and sometimes I think I am going to have to leave my role with all that is going on in my life to handle this situation. It is crazy but trying to keep the strength and my act together to plow through this rough period. Just a bad wave right now....