I ask, because as I went back over your story I see an overwhelming amount of rumination and only a small bit of action to focus and heal yourself.
Please take my advice and obtain the knowledge you need to start taking action. The longer you wait the more difficult things will get and the less opportunity you will have to get to a place that you desire.
I have shared many ideas for information and hope that you can learn form it, but ultimately you need to take action.
Those that take action will still go through the pain and challenges, but they come out the other side stronger an typically in a shorter amount of time. Those that ruminate and continue to do the things that led to this situation tend to drag out the process.......
Which path will you choose?
You have support here. You have us cheering you on. You have a support group going through similar challenges. Now my friend, lets hear some things from you that you are doing to take care of yourself, to heal, to progress forward, if even a baby step at a time. What is you plan today to experience a moment of joy and peace that is about you?
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine