What a beautiful post Pink, thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
Originally Posted By: Pink17
My perfectionism became peace, love, compassion. My criticism became encouragement, friendship and caring. I am a different person and it is now becoming my core.
That's what people keep saying to me too, that working through personal issues now will mean that no matter what happens in the R, I will be a better person at the end, it sounds that is true for you.
Originally Posted By: Pink17
I never been a bad person, but I was fake. In many ways I believed to be doing the write things and yet I see now that I was just postponing to face my own flaws.
Aren't we all a little fake in our relationships? How honest are we really with our partners? Often we don't share feelings and worries so that we don't hurt the other person, but doesn't that make us fake?
As you said you thought you were doing the right things, your intentions were good. Don't be too hard on yourself, you will face your fears in your own time.
Originally Posted By: Pink17
He moved on, and I didn't. I wish I can manage to move myself on too.
But of course you will, it will just be in your own time. You cannot move on because it is the "right time" or because your H did, you will move on when you are ready to do so.
We are here for you, keep posting and keep working on yourself and your sons.
"There's nothing sadder than a conman conning himself"
“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”
