Almost 10 weeks since she said she didnt love me

[Natus]

Had an R talk last night.

It went well, too well that im back to being confused again.
She re-iterated that she is doing all she can to make sure OM is not in the picture at all but right now she has to because of work. She will move office in less than 20 days.

Im just wondering why all the effort if shes telling other people she wants to end the M.

The R talk was pretty much us validating each other, she didnt speak up when we had problems, i didnt notice etc. She realises now how her behaviour of just shutting down and not saying anything, expecting me to minread contributed to the demise of our M.

I told her i havent shut the door in us (im not sure if that is right DB) and she seemed to be more than okay with that.

We ended the talk quite light and made plans for the next day being the start of ramadhan and all that. I have never been religious before but i find myself looking to god nowadays.

This will be the first time since childhood i am going to attempt to fast. Interestingly enough the W announced she will fast too. Took me completely by surprised. So i guess we are fasting together for Ramadhan.