Still in limbo month 7

[Roxi]

Had a breakdown Saturday (later discovered it was PMS- I'm 50 dang it- when will it end?) asked H to meet me for lunch Sunday after church at the Flying Burrito. We talked about the kids- it felt very comfortable. He thought I was there to ask him for a divorce- I just wanted to touch base (pursuing, I know.) Told him I didn't want to call it quits until we had tried all avenues. He said we would talk later in the week, he was in shock since he thought the divorce talk was coming from me. He said if I did file, it would be put on the back burner since he's so busy at work. ( yeah, right.) Laughable to think you get served papers and say, "Sorry- don't have time!" He still insists he's not talked to a lawyer or done anything pertaining to divorce. We are beginning to feel like friends- but my guard is up and my heart is shielded.