Thanks Job,

You really nailed something I would like to work on. I am always overaccomdating and I pretzel myself. I think I am being nice and helpful, but perhaps I am making myself look kind of desperate and pathetic by doing that. I knew if I told exNG I needed him to come to me sometimes from the beginning, it would have only ended way sooner. I only told him when I was ready to accept the consequences. I thought by then he loved me enough to want to do that. I was wrong. I always used to drive to another guy I dated. I think he saw me twice. And it was usually with a last minute invite.

Sheesh, guys must not respect and value my time because apparently I don't. See, there really is something else to work on. I can do this without being a B*tch. And I can do this without being a doormat.

I am certainly not looking right now. If it happens, it happens. Otherwise, it's going to be business as usual for me. Work, school, activities, friends.