I got the boat out yesterday with the kids, just the 3 of us. We had a good time, but I really missed xW's company, really missed her help. D9 thought of getting snacks together on her own before we left, something xW always used to do for us. Brought a tear to my eye that D9 assumed this role on her own, I was so proud of her. S11 was right there to help with landing the boat. Both were just so excited to help with everything.
While in the boat, the kids would do something, I'd turn to share it with W, she wasn't there. I can't believe how many times I looked over at her seat, looking for her. I fought the tears hard, didn't want to take away from the fun with the kids, as they were having a great time.
The kids and I spent most of the weekend in the camper, their choice, I assume because it is an "adventure" for them. I was worried it would feel like yet one more place they were bouncing to, since xW isn't staying at the house, she is staying at MIL's most of the time. I now think it was finally a "familiar" place. It allowed time with them away from my parents, which I think was great for all of us. And it was finally a space that was mine, amazing how much different that can feel.
Oh man, I am so super excited about this. I so dearly hope you can look at this and smile as much as I am right now.
took courage and you crushed the challenge.
you spent the weekend with the kids and nailed it.....woo-hooooooo!!!!!
