I sure do miss me and exNG's trips to Whole foods to pick out a dinner for us to make together always with a stop in the chocolate aisle. We would cook dinner together, enjoy some wine and talk in front of the fire. It's the little things, and actually quite simple, but I was on cloud 9.
Cadet, Thank you:). online guy is busy, but there is a place of common courtesy, especially when we were supposed to be seeing eachother Wednesday. That's my free night, and he left it hanging in the air. I did message him yesterday "haven't heard from you in a few days, hope all is well". no response. So, I have cleared my schedule for Wednesday night. I can be a doormat, so I am trying ot balance patientce between being overly accommodating. I was way overly accommodating with exNG and it got me feeling used and unworthy of his efforts.
To touch on the things I am thankful for, I have great friends as always. I was supposed to be going away with 3 friends to FL in July, but I can't afford it. I backed out. They did an intervention on me Saturday night at a party saying they would all chip in and I could pay them back slowly, but they need me there. It wouldn't be the same without me, they love me and won't accept no for an answer. It meant a lot they care that much.
There is a roof over my head, a job to pay the bills, most of my health. I can wake up every morning and know I have my integrity. Of course my daughter who is the only good thing to come out of my marriage.
I never forget these things. I worked hard for most of them. My life from day 1 has not been a walk in the park, and I am where I am today by some really hard work and some major stumbles along the way
