I actually do not feel low self worth. I kind of do what I want in that moment with little regard for what others are going to say. I'm kind of oblivious to them. (My best friend jokes, that I'm never angry like her because I'm so oblivious to others. But she also says I never recognize all the guys that are flirting and sending signals.. because I am oblivious and in my own world)
I guess I know that others are probably not even thinking of me and sometimes I like to go under the radar and just be. I'm a big day dreamer. I also grew up in an area where there are so many people you get to just be a cog in the wheel. It's very comforting to me.
I remember a last minute plan to go somewhere. I called my aunt to see if she would come and she wanted to, but would not go because "she didn't have her face on" !!! To me the desire to go and do is more important then how I will look doing it.
That being said, I do have fun getting dressed up and being fashionable. I look good when I go out and I look forward to having someone to be sexy for. But it doesn't dictate my daily life. I don't need it. I Don't really feel any differently about myself when I am dressed up versus not. It's just about what's going to work best for me in that moment and perhaps my mood.
