Ahhhhh G, I feel your pain. This dating thing suucks! I've had a number of similar online experiences...you chat, they seem really interested, saying all the right things and then bang, they give me their phone number. Wow! Then disappear into cyberspace and you're left wondering "WTF?"It always amazes me the effect that has on you. It certainly grinds you down and when you combine it with other things you're still dealing with you want to just toss it all in and say forget it! I'm at a place where being alone is pretty good. I have my church (amazing place), my photography, work and family and friends. I sometimes wonder whether I have time to fit someone in any more...or do I want to make that time, is a better question. Sometimes I really do miss it though. For example, on Saturday night Church Lady and I went to Walmart together (after sunset). We shopped a little and lined up to pay but decided to try the self serve instead...as we worked through the check out process together she exclaimed "this is fun!"...and we were having fun. As I was walking to the car I had this nice warm feeling...this stupid 15 minute excursion at Walmart felt so nice...to be shopping with a lady again! How weird that it's often those little tiny things which pop up and that make you miss being with someone again. So my advice is to sit back for a bit and, yes do look at your patterns but if a relationship is what you need you will know it. If not, as others have said, it's cool to be alone and it's not like purgatory or something...it's just a different kind of adventure! Feel better, you're an amazing lady with so much to give someone...and deserve someone who recognizes that!
