The begining of the rest of my new life? (3)

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The suffering I am going through these days is almost unbearable.
Last Friday STBXW and I met to talk for the second time about our kids' future.
STBXW presented her proposal: she wants to keep the kids with her in this foreign country for the next year, since she intends to remain here.
On the other hand, I have applied to go back to my previous job back in my home country.
This is causing me so much pain: my kids will no longer have contact with both parents on a regular basis, much less living in the vicinity of each other.
The kids' school ends in two weeks. Every second I spend with them is like gold to me, but I am painfully aware of the upcoming day that marks the end of the second separation they will face in one year, being the first the separation of their parents.
I could take the decision to stay in this foreign land and job one more year. It would be so easy for everybody. However, I am losing seniority back home and feel that I need to go back, although I like very much what I am doing here (and earning).
The decision I must take is excruciating.
I no longer sleep.