In the UK - PT 18 'Dark O'Clock'

[roist]

I have nothing insightful to add to the comments of your DB friends who have already replied.

If believing that reconciliation may not happen is not possible,maybe tell yourself that is is a five year process after which she will come back. Now what are you going to do with the next four years?

A few years back I often had similar dark thoughts.It is not a good place to be. Everyone has down days. Pick yourself back up and treat yourself to a small pleasure today.

Best wishes