Lost and scared

[Coconut]

JZ, I'm sorry to hear that you feel things are not getting better, but you haven't got the bomb drop that you were fearing, so that's a plus.

I would suggest not to tell your H specifically what you are doing, be more mysterious. Instead of saying that your going to neighbors to play games, just tell him your going out, if he asks for more, tell him to hang out with friends to have some fun.... If he asks for more, just say I won't be too late, c-ya...