So I wanted to tell a little story. Having read many threads and seen how many go to church, I'm not a church goer myself, my W's family are all Christian. My FIL is a retired minister. Anyways my story.
So my W and I met at a wedding, my FIL was the official. During the rehersal service he went for some prayer time. At the end of his prayer, he asked if there was someone here for his D. Apparently I then walked though the door, he took it as his sign that I was the one for his D, he made it a mission to get to know me. At the wedding, I was best man, and during the evening my W and I hit it off immediately. It is so hard to be in this position now when our connection was so instant in the beginning. Some say things happen for a reason, that there is a plan for us. We had so many people say we were right for each other, she used to say often about how we met that I was the best man and I was the best man.
It's hard knowing I hurt her so much and have been hurt so much. I know that I lost my way, I went to far into being what I thought my W wanted and gave up myself and too much of what I wanted for me. I was broken, I can admit that. I'm am on the right path forward, it will continue to take time and I know it may not save my M as she has her own work to do. As she said to me, she broke. We were both broken in different ways and came apart. I think what's frustrating is knowing so much but not the outcome. I can only continue working on me and see what happens.
