so here is some food for thought. its my weekend. i have the kids. she asked today if she could have them for a few hours. we ended up talking for awhile, and she says that if i would stop being so distant from her when things get sloppy, that she would put more effort into our relationship. but that seeing me "run away" time and time again, instead of speaking my feelings is turning her off.
so, i told her my feelings. and now she is much more accepting of us having a relationship. a for real relationship.
i suggested, and we agreed, to take it super slow. to just be nice to each other. and let it grow from here. i almost thought she was going to hug me. i validated the crap out of her. but i also spoke my peace, but not in a mean way. just honesty from both of us.
it seems our fights are productive now. not toxic. where to go from he now is the question. it seems, that i closeness is getting closer, and our off times are getting shorter and less dramatic.
