Working on me and letting it play out

[Coconut]

CBT, it is incredible how close out sitch's are, even to the point we are both talking about separating.... It's so difficult trying to decide what would be best, I know I want more than anything to reconcile with my W, but at the same time I know I'm setting myself up for a lot of pain if it doesn't work out... Sometimes I just feel like if I say screw it and move on I'll be able to deal with the pain all at once and then move on instead of dragging it out.

Of course with your young S it is a different scenario, I feel for you man, I really do. I feel your pain, and am praying for you and your family.